April 2012
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10th week.
Photo location: Fort Benjamin Harrison
How far along: I am a full 9 weeks along at the start of this week, although by time this posts, I’ll be 10 weeks.
Baby’s size: At nearly an inch and a half, half head and half body, baby is the size of a prune.
Baby developments: Let’s see… bones and cartilage and knees and ankles and elbows and teeth! Oh my goodness,...
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9th week.
Photo location: our backyard
How far along: At the start of this week, I am now 8 weeks along.
Baby’s size: A nasty green olive delicious green grape- reaching an inch long!
Baby developments: The embryo is now considered a true fetus, one with baby-like facial features and webbed fingers and toes. The placenta has developed quite a bit.
My total weight gain: I think I lost...
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telling family.
This post is coming late, very late, but for the past couple of weeks, all of my energy has been spent on getting out of bed, showering at least a few times a week, brushing my teeth (not easy when mint makes you gag), swallowing ten pills a day (also not easy with nausea), and trying to keep up with my daily water intake, which is becoming increasingly difficult to manage. Extreme fatigue, to the...
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8th week.
Photo location: Hope, Indiana in Jeremy’s grandparent’s backyard
How far along: 7 whole weeks have now passed (as of the start of this week, Saturday, April 7).
Baby’s size: Baby turned into a little raspberry!
Baby developments: Our tiny reptilian fetus is losing the tail and has turned into something that more closely resembles a human baby, with hands and arms,...
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7th week.
Photo location: a park in Crows Nest, Indianapolis
(sorry for the last one) (i’m a dork)
How far along: 6 weeks have passed.
Baby’s size: A quarter inch blueberry- my favorite fruit. Jeremy likes the small, tart ones, which is likely the size of our little one right now.
Baby developments: The head and brain is really starting to grow this week. The mouth and tongue are...
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seeing the baby.
Today, on what I thought was week 6, day 6 of our pregnancy, I had an early fetal ultrasound.
We had really pushed for this appointment to be today, on Friday (Good Friday, actually) not on Monday or any other day between week 8-10. I mean, I called the doctor’s office, I rationalized, I begged, I got emotional, I called Jeremy, he called them, the nurses and receptionists likely all...
Watch“Say, ‘Hi’, dad.”
“Hi dad.”
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6th week.
Photo location: outside a floral shop in South Broad Ripple
How far along: 5 whole weeks have passed. This may be obvious to you, but I need the weekly reminder.
Baby’s size: Baby is a little sweet pea!
Baby developments: Tissues are forming the facial shape, and the heart is starting to form and is already beating! The neural tube is starting to close over, too. A primitive...
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confirming conception.
I had no idea what to title this post. It’s important, though, because it gave us our first confirmation that we had conceived outside of what the at home pregnancy tests told us. (I totally trusted those pregnancy tests, by the way. Doctors still like to confirm with their own methods, though!)
We found out Monday, called Tuesday, and was asked to come to the practice’s walk-in lab...
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5th week.
**We didn’t take pictures this week. These were screenshots from the videos.
How far along: 4 weeks have passed. This concept is funny to me- the day I found out, I was 4 weeks and 2 days along, which is the start of week 5. This update is about 5th week, so Saturday, March 17 (before I found out) to Friday, March 23. Future updates will take this format.
Baby’s size: A little...
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telling my husband.
I felt myself driving slower, more defensively, more aware… even motherly, as I drove off to the store to buy silver wrapping paper and a pink and a blue balloon festooned with “It’s a girl!” and “It’s a boy!” exclamations, as part of my not-so-elaborate plan to tell my husband. Hey, at least I didn’t call him at work during a meeting and blab the...
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WatchThe second pregnancy test of the day- another positive.
I’m finally pregnant!
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the first moments of pregnancy.
These first moments…
I remembered how the day before, my afternoon shower had literally wore me out. I was exhausted afterward, nearly out of breath, and needed to lay on the couch for a while. How I had gotten out of bed that night to use the bathroom, something I never do at night.
I thought about Jeremy, about how much I had put him through with my car accident and how he never, ever...
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the last day of winter, part 2.
(the last day of winter, part 1.)
Watching that video brings tears to my eyes every time. I remember so vividly what it looked like each month to examine a test that so clearly had just one line. This test… it just looked so different. It was so different. Everything changed that moment.
It meant I could conceive a child, that my body worked, that my eating disorder hadn’t destroyed...
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Watch“Hello! It’s Monday, March 19, 2012, in the morning… I am doing something a little bit silly, but I thought that if all goes well, I’ll really want this moment recorded… in less than three minutes I’ll have the results of an at-home pregnancy test! My husband and I have been trying to conceive our first baby for a long time, and although we’ve never gotten that positive pregnancy test,...
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the last day of winter.
Monday, Marsh 19, 2012. After a mild winter, our flowers were already in bloom, and trees were starting to blossom. The world outside was getting greener and brighter and sunnier, but inside, I kept myself tightly wrapped up in blankets, sleeping in as late as I could in the cool darkness. After the chaos the car accident brought to my life, I didn’t hold much hope for things getting better...
the car accident.
For more than one reason, I won’t go into all the details of this. It impacted my life in a very negative way and added more stress than I could imagine. It was our family’s only car, a wonderful 2006 Honda Civic that was given to me in college by my parents. A month later, and I’m still dealing with insurance. The other driver may or may not be insured, but definitely...
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my march, his march, our march. 2012.
my march 2012: My friend in Seattle is a middle school special education teacher (yes, her job stresses her out) (yes, she loves it). They were starting a unit on internment camps in America during World War II; Farewell to Manzanar was part of their reading material. Knowing my family was Japanese American and that my dad was alive during the war, she called asking if I could help bring a...
the toughest job in the world.
I truly do not feel bitter about my “infertility”. I don’t even use that term because it seems so permanent, and don’t believe my situation is. I still celebrate pregnancies around me, even when I’m getting negative pregnancy tests myself. I believe I WILL get pregnant in due time, and the time just hasn’t been right yet.
But I must admit I get a little weary...
my golden birthday.
This is the birthday I’ve been looking forward to ever since my last big day, at 21 (even though I was in the middle of writing a huge college essay on the Greek translations of the book of Acts in the Bible at the time; no bars for me). Monday, February 27, 2012 is when I turned 27, and I made sure Jeremy knew to make a slightly bigger deal of it.
He delivered.
He took the day off work,...
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clomid, round 1.
My visit to the doctor in February was for one reason: to be put on clomiphene, the drug most commonly used to induce ovulation. My visit came a month later than scheduled, just so I could have an “extra cycle” to try to conceive. But after a year of trying, it was clear my body wasn’t going to manage ovulation and conception on it’s own.
The appointment was brief and...
mardi gras.
Mardi Gras is a holiday I could always get down with. Drunken revelry, all day festivities, cajun food and king cake. It’s true that it’s not a huge holiday here in Indianapolis, but there are still people who like to get out and celebrate each year.
For me, Mardi Gras came around the time of my period, so I took it as a sign to relax an maybe enjoy a beer. Okay, my friends took it as...
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my february, his february, our february. 2012.
my february 2012: The super bowl succeeded in bringing not only fame and fortune to my city, but also old friends from out of state. Nic was part of Madonna’s halftime show and flew in, and Ashley was down from grad school visiting her family during the football holiday. It had been years since I had seen either, so it was an awesome treat to get together at P.F. Changs for some lettuce...
first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes...
February 13th of this year marks two years since Jeremy proposed to me. That doesn’t have anything to do with the rest of this post, but it got me thinking about why I named this blog what I did. Here comes my rambling…
First comes love. Than comes marriage. Then comes baby… We have always wanted to do things in this order, not because we’re traditionalists, but because we...
super bowl xlvi.
I love this city. I’ve spent a lot of time wanting to leave, but each time that I did, I came back. And when I came back for good, I realized why.
Indianapolis is a huge city- 12th largest in the nation- but it’s a modest city, with a modest skyline and a population that feels totally under control. We don’t get bad traffic here, Midwesterners truly are kind and generous people,...
other cats named christopher columbus.
Christopher Columbus. Not one of my favorite people in the history of the world. Hawaii doesn’t even recognize Columbus Day, nor any other man known for the destruction of an indigenous culture, among other crimes. But moving on.
CC the cat was named for two reasons. One, I had Andrew Dost’s soundtrack to his newly written and “pretty silly” (his words, not mine) musical...
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my january, his january, our january. 2012.
my january 2012: I had a little dog pee on me. Which is why I will gladly take three cats over any cute tiny puppy.
his january 2012: Jeremy thinks it’s funny to take photos of me and manipulate them in Photoshop. Sometimes I end up with my nose cloned on my forehead, other times I end up with Jeremy’s facial features on my face. Either way, I look frightful and Jeremy laughs...
